BOOYAH! :D my eye bags are huge.i need to sleeeep ZzZzz...i hate staying at my new house i know its all nice n all but there's no computer no line ..no service. no smsing =( i was frsutrated last night thanks to the stupid DIGI LINE .what crap about " i wil follow you" they singing la .. i live just a bit further outer part of bukit jalil no FREAKING LINE edi!!its so weird not to sms n all n today my mum gave me some "TALK" omg so annoying.oh well i slept at 2am last night doing all my tuition hw n skewl work plus i studied my sejarah edi n my mum saying im not putting in any EFFORT ? :( i have no clue whats going on in her mind la. im confused.life's getting complicated. im sick now =/ what else could go wrong?? two days ago was perfect :) i have no idea lahh .. ohh n when i finally came to skewl with all my hw done ..dionne says " OMG WHERE'S THE REAL CARRIE WHAT HAVE U DONE TO HER?? " that proves how much i "finished" my hw :D i really pray hard for the digi line to be okay when i get bak to my new hse. i really dont wanna stay there laah plus my granparents are staying here alone :( feel so bad to leave la. grandma even said its so quiet aaround here :( i wanna stay hereeeee i feeel like crying every time trying to think that this is not my house anymore *sobs* oh well.. there's alot going through my mind now plus exams are next week.OMG :( i gtg now cioaz! xoxo much love

sunshine makes us high ? =)

right.

li ling+carrie=awesome!

tell me now that i dont love lalz?

the whole troopr :)

anyways heys!its been sucha long time sine i've blog.so here goes..chinese new year this year is quite quiet if u know what i mean.no mood at all.was suppose to go to shanghai with my cousins but instead i moved in to my new house so had open hse n all.reunion dinner was fun though.i got to eat goodfood n drank wine n champagne :) life's good!as usual we had YEE SANG the salmon is the onlyreason i eat it haha x) we played firecrackers too! my dad bought the red chinese ones from shanghai.smuggled in actually x)

first dayy went for tsen's open hse as usual at JW Marriot :) n met up with yy chyi teeng n tsen. we didnt "puak kiau" this year.haha! then after that went to dionne's hse.the whole gang was there me n juli gambled abit.hehe.n yeah thee next day off to su kim's place for her open hse. was quite fun.cam whoring all the way man! hehe

3rd day!my open hse!yeah mostly everyone could make it.so we gambled drank ate n watch the ommen!freaking scary at one part. they made me cry .boohoo =/ i need my dahling!ish.neways yeah we had some fun on that day! shiv n yw stayed over :) haha it was havoc i swear!gossip dam banyak n bang someone dam banyak too!she's a STAR :D so yeah it was all good fun :) friennds +drinks+money=F.U.N

valentines day!

heys!im in my old hse now new house no connection sucks badly!!anyways today is valentine's but my day was really messed up it started out perfect but screwed up. anyways my valentine fell sick =/ pooor thing was really sad when i heard what happen when we were suppose to go out n all but too bad its just my luck but i got my rose from him :) so sweeeet :) neways i followed warren n hanisah to mv anyways cuz i didnt wanna ditch my friend just becuz my date wasnt there anyhowever we went to have teppanyaki! n hani got high on red bull hehe!n warren being SARCASTIC as ever! this is warren im talking about! the quiet one.. well now not so anymore haha then we walked around met up with his friends n we stone at haegan daz :) i wanted to have the chocolate fondue!geez!the next time i go there I MUST HAVE IT!haha chocolateee!!hehe newys we stone summore n yeah that was it n i had to wait for my mum after one hr im still there called her no one answer n i got scolding from her after that n had to take a cab to tuition n did i mention my day started out with me tripping n fell my legs n palm have scratches n were bleeding..sweeeeet .. out of every day for all this effing crap to happen it had to fall on Valentine's .thanks alot :( im depressed.dissapointed. n hurt :(

random dreams.random thoughts.

i woke up at 5.35 today morning.after 1 hour im here blogging.yeap its only 7.12 am now.i cant sleep i had a bad dream not a nightmare but worst than that worst then anything in that h0rrid dream i was no one they couldnt see me but i could see them i felt like i was alive yet almost death missing them so much yet not being able to even get them to notice me.felt like i was in this big big world alonee it was scary =/ i swwear it was.i rather be dead then living like that.waking up in that way was almost scary i woke up with tears in my eyes again,i dont know why i keep getting these dreams.mayb it was just a bad dream righttt ??

i have to lie to myself just to make me feeel better

anyways about yesterday i packed up everything to bring over to my new housee my clothes books etc etc :) n i have this box with all those silly little notes of encouragement in it. n i read one from slee ;) in form one ..2 years ago it really did felt like time flies yet now a dys it passes so slow.everything is different. i miss you slee! :( the silly note i read after we went for simple plan concert!chuck's horneyy! ahhh.. that was quite some time ago hehe.neways today's my dad's burfday so yeah hopefully i'll blog about it later.this was just random x)

-remember your perfect.God makes no mistakes-

i know i am :) shivani describes me as a "bissy sarcastic cheerleader" hmmm :)

heys!i havent been updating really soweee got busy hehe :D newayss the pass weeek was alright not bad im moving this saturday to my new hse ..my room's pink! (: goodbye old hse hellu new one! :D but im scared to sleep alone.ANYHOWEVER i'm so dam tireddd just got back from cheer dont know if i join the school team cause some people's in it ..like EWW man n juli was banging someone dam bad only :) i love u for that!fat thing! lols o-m-g ! hmm oh yeah yesterday we took our TENTANUS injection!it was quite nerve wrecking. i was scared lalz started crying =/ awww. but after a short entertainment from huey mint when she was geting the jab i was fine ..i got HIGH after the whole thing!hahaa me n dionne laughed our head off :D but my arms are so numb now it kinda hurts blardy yu an n all whacked my hand dam hard in tuition yesterday.dam fools!geez.ughh. anyways today i was so pissed off thanks to some people really annoying now of days ..she isnt the person i used to know anymore ..no more fun,happy carefree.. now is all tense,bitchy,attitude girl.im just being honest i noticed that she's changedddd oh well thats about it i guess im bored need to go have my bath now bye bye ;) mwahs!hugs!xxx

jokeee :

after takking that picture above with shivani ...

shivani: carriee...we look so good together!

carrie: *looks at her phone* OMG ya!! we do! *laughs*

shivani : we should take more pictures together more often since WE LOOK SO GOOD TOGETHER

carrie: wait ...

shivani: eerrrr... HAHA!

*bursts out laughing*

hahaha!yw will come find me if he sees this :D

heyss! anyways i forgot to blog about something so important! IVAN'S birthdayyy! :) aLthough i didnt get to attend his suprise dinner in TGIF organize by Hui Ying i still love him sorryh! haha .whooopss ..newayss my bro turns 15 on 31st of january! woohoo he's so old now :P this guy rocks man! looks lala but isnt at all x) uber poser as u can see lols neways yeah he's been a really great frienddd n been there for me when i was down. he's ivan yaauuww!! i got him a present but too bad i didnt take a picture of it lols. oh well this guy is a person u wouldnt regret knowing..funny fellah ..damn joker.. goes on n on n he n his hilariouss jokes.lols.yeah he rocks ivan,i love him.my brother =)

so my day was alright i went for tuition n off to sri aman for the interact probationer's seminar !yeah it was tons of fun got to meet new people n i met sa'idah!haha she looks so cute still so short :) haha i remember those primary days when me n kim use to always bully her it was so funny.. can i say " ahh ..those were the days" im not tat old edi am i ? :D so yeahhh met the 3 lalas in denial there too n yeah anysa n i were in blue team =) it was all really about knowing bout the interact n rotary club :) then i finally look at my phone to see a messagee!ahhhh!somoeone got phone edii! im so happy :) hehe anyhowever i went over to church after that i brought my clothes to change but emi didnt let me ..so we ended up going there in baju kurung ..hey i got comments from chaarmaine n a few others of looking good in uniform hehe x) sara says our prefect uniform is nice HAHA!! oh the well then we had KFC after so long ... haha then went to church for service..this time that bimbo jeremy joined us n he wore my shirt.. it looked so WRONG! we died laughing!haha xp so yah n yadah ydah yadah ..balik n here i am blogging.. gonna sleep now.ciaowww!mwahs.hugs.love (;

Fcuk you. you hoe. I dont want you back!yeah ps-dionne im listening to the song noww!!i worship eamon for creating this song haha :D neways im so tired now just got back from the day out.woke up at 9 am todayh!went to school for cheer practice n all..then we ended up figuring up steps n all for our routine..justynee comes up with the cutest steps i tell you! :) hahaa didnt practice much we end up bitching too laah..come on we're girls thats what we do :P then i went to amcorp n watch movieeee! :) finally after 2 days of not being able to sms i get to watch a movie haha! we watched death note 2! the guy so gay yet so hot ..he picks everything up like a girl! haha sissy yet hott lols bet kj n everyone else understand the whole show eexcept me since i was so sleepy practically stoning there plus it was free sitting.some malay dude infront of me had sucha big head blocking me only!geez!amcorp cinema is so cheap weii!5 bucks per showw most expensive also 8 bucks! lols oh well im so damn bored now plus i miss someone so much noww..arghh.it hurtss =/ ...plus no smsing noww...someone dosent have a phonee.it pisses me off damn!i feel like swearing but i told myself not too hehe.anyhowever its so sad i keep checking my hp hoping to find a meesaage there but it dissapoints me more everytime i check it i feeel like crying !!million tears i cried for youu .. i <3 thatt songg!so whateverr laah hope everything turns up finee :) i need to prayyyy *smiles.. so yeah after i left amcorp mum n dad brought me to find lightingsss it feeels good to be the only childdd ! i get everything i want ..n i DONT get scolding unlike when im around my sisters.. its like i dont even exist ..ish ish.so yeah im gonna go now wanna sleeeeepp ZzZZzz.. (: mwahsss! hugs!xxx